Birth Trauma.... this saddest part about birth Trauma is the Trauma only starts with birth. The most beautiful thing that would have happened to date has been diminished to a traumatic event. That word haunts me, Trauma! Traumatic birth, Traumatic brain injury to both of the little loves of my life! How......TRAUMATIC!
Trauma: a deeply distressing or disturbing experience; emotional shock following a stressful event or a physical injury, which may be associated with physical shock and sometimes leads to long-term neurosis; physical injury.
I can't even articulate how bad I hurt at this moment....I
I feel angry!
I feel sad!
I feel scared!
I feel depressed!
I feel grief and sorrow!
I feel pain!
1 year ago today feels like the beginning of the end for me. Never in my wildest dreams would I have imagined my story would be this. Jaxon and I were victimized from the beginning of our admission into the women's hospital until we requested to be transferred out. Today I want to curl up and hide. I don't have any positive words. God show up!