There is a version of grief that people don’t talk about enough. Not the kind you cry through. Not the kind you write about. Not even the kind you pray through. But the kind your body carries. When Your Body Remembers What Your Mouth Can’t Say Grief has weight. And trauma… trauma has memory. It settles into your shoulders. It hides in your chest. It shows up in your breathing, your sleep, your ability to focus, your ability to be. There are days I am not sad. …but my body is.

The Tension No One Talks About There is a tension I live in now. A space that doesn’t make sense to people who have not walked through fire and still chosen to breathe. It’s the space where grief and gratitude sit at the same table. Where loss and life coexist. Where I can mourn deeply… and still laugh from my belly in the same day. And if I’m being honest— that confuses people. Because people want grief to look one way. They want it to be linear, predictable, palatable. But

There is a moment after loss that people don’t talk about. It’s the moment when the casseroles stop coming. When the messages slow down. When the world gently — or sometimes abruptly — expects you to return to normal. But the truth is this: There is no normal after burying your child. There is only after. After the hospital rooms. After the machines. After the prayers that sounded like pleading. After the silence that followed. And after my sons, Darren & Jaxon, left this ea

God Said No – Weekly Reflection Grief is not a single moment. It is a landscape. A valley that you walk through step by step, sometimes slowly, sometimes painfully, sometimes with clarity, sometimes with confusion. This series is called Grief Reality: Lessons From the Valley  because grief reveals things about life, relationships, faith, and ourselves that we often do not see until we are standing in the middle of loss. I’m choosing transparency in this space not because the

There are moments in life when the only words that make sense are the ones we never thought we would have to say. For a long time, my story felt like three words echoing through my spirit — God said no. No to the prayers I whispered in hospital rooms. No to the dreams I carried for my sons. No to the future I thought I would watch unfold.  But journeys with God are rarely about a single moment. They are about transformation. And today, I am learning that what once felt like

So maybe I needed the nudge received this morning by spammers on the site, let's call it a God nudge. Hey y'all it's been quite some...

Hey Ya'll, What happens when the dust settles? It's kinda eerie how lonely grief feels. It's been 2 months and it feels like yesterday....

Hey Yall, IT's been a minute, but I've made it through. The sunshine and rain, heartache and pain. So why am I filled with sadness,...

Birth Trauma.... this saddest part about birth Trauma is the Trauma only starts with birth. The most beautiful thing that would have...

Hey Y'all Jaxon is turning 1 on Sunday, July 25th!!! Yes, already Jaxon has turned 3 days into 365. My Sonshine has bravery and courage...

Hey Ya'll! I fell apart today! Like completely apart!!! I've been in a funk for the last couple of days that I just couldn't shake. I...

Hey Y'all, My, My, My God said No today! Today started off like the rest this week and I couldn't shake it! I was starting to feel...

Hey Y'all, I have decided that I choose happiness. I choose not to let my situation or circumstances determine my smile and/or my spirit....

Hey Y'all, Fridays have always had a special place in my heart. When I was career based Fridays indicated that my life could really...

Hey Ya'll, I'm burnt! Burnt out! I woke up overwhelmed and over anxious this morning. Unfortunately this feels very familiar, although...

Hey Y'all, Being a Mama is hard. There is no handbook even though there are now thousands of books about motherhood. No 2 motherhoods...

Hey Y'all, Are y'all reading??? Why haven't I heard from you? Comment, share, let's talk!!!! Today, relationships are on my heart!...

Hey Ya'll, So, this morning Jaxon and I had an appointment for a swallow study (Jaxon takes everything by G-tube). I never think twice...

Hey ya'll! Can I take my vulnerability back? Can I run and tuck my head back in like a turtle? God why did you give me this? Why do...

Hey Ya'll, Why haven't we normalized being vulnerable? Sounds easy right. Nope. I have started this blog post over and over again...