IT IS MY PLEASURE TO INTRODUCE YOU TO NOLIN KAI' TAYLOR Today, I am grateful. Gratefulness is flowing from my heart. And this morning, gratefulness looked like waking up with a head tucked into the crook of my neck and some little feet planted directly in my back. I don't even know how that's physically possible. But apparently toddlers are very limber. And I laid there and thought: God, thank You. Thank You for this. Because what I know to be true now is that I had to operate out of a...

HIS. PERIOD. I know who I am. God said I’m His. Period. A revelation happened today. I always knew how to be Jaxon’s mom. I knew how to be Darren’s mom. And I will admit something that has been hard for me to even understand myself: I have struggled with being Nolin’s mom. Not because I don’t love him. I love that baby with everything in me. But I have never been the mother of a neurotypical child. I don’t know this kind of motherhood. I knew how to be the mother who advocated. The mother who...

The Levees Broke: I Finally Cried for Jaxon P.S. before I even begin: I don't know what version of me is writing this. Yesterday, I thought I did. Lately, I have had a few mornings where I woke up and thought, Oh. I recognize this girl. She was here yesterday. That might not sound like much to somebody who has never had grief rearrange their identity every twenty-four hours, but to me, that was progress. Because for a while, every morning has felt like meeting another version of myself. Some...